Sunday, June 15, 2008

once again...

Firstly feeling after two trips....
Hmm.... after coming back from China and Australia, i am totally into travelling now.... Somehow my mood isn't right ever since i got back. Have trouble facing reality when i am back in Singapore. The thought of having to maintain CAP is quite sickening man. hmm...


Regarding handover....

Finally, after two tiring semesters, i am handing over Captaincy. It is a tough decision but finally, we came up with the most-likely workable configuration. hmm... these hand over phase is quite irritating. Things are like not here, not there and not really motivated to work anymore.


Regarding climbing...

Don't really feel like competing anymore... totally lost the motivation to compete. As in, after competing so long, i am quite tired. Not because i am on the long dirty road of open, but simply because i have been climbing too long and i need a break? I can see why Jackie is so motivated to train hard and perform. Perhaps because he just got promoted. Congrats once again. Hmm.. and my climbing is simply screwed up now. Totally cant do moves that i used to be able to do. Cant lock, cant crank and cant what not.... Hmm.... hope things will be better after official training starts next semester


Regarding future.....

a big majority of my friends are all going for SEP next semester. hmm... i feel left out. I know if i had gotten down to plan and apply for SEP, i would have gotten it. Just that i was tied down by climbing responsibilities. Perhaps climbing really took up too much of myself. Should have thought about what i really wanted in my uni life... SOOOOOOOO... i have decided. I am goiing to apply for SEP. if i don't get it, i will apply for summer programme. For SEP, i am looking at perhaps NZ, Canada or Australia. Anywhere in fact... =). The only consideration now is cost.....


Hmm.... lots of thoughts that i need to release from within................... till the next post...... hopefully everything will be right.