Romancing the Brick Wall

Finally done (I think) with my shopping. Bought a pair of loafers and a bag. Thats it. I am not going to spend anymore. The rest shall be from US if my sis manage to find good deals.

How about sch? Ecology field trip 1 was kinda boring. Walked around campus. Identified plants that you would never have noticed. Probably the next few trips would be more interesting. Pharmacology is interesting as ever. Making sense of society is not too bad. Manged to catch up with friend who has toured almost the whole of Europe. Einstein is......confusing but fun as got two others to disturb and talk crap. All the lame jokes.

Neurology on the other hand... IS KILLING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHZZZZ... should have taken physiology man. Shall stop being adventurous next time and not try modules that sound interesting.

How about climbing? What can I say?......I just hate to lose my temper and vent it on the wall. Ya... not sportsman like and all.... It is just wrong...... But I have no outlet to let my rants out. It is constantly building. The frustration. The disappointment. Its all building up. And so. Monday. Flared up and yup. Lost my cool. Hmm...Shouldn't have done it. Like how i asked everyone who messaged me that day... Why is it that the thing you love most, always hurt you badly? I need to regain my zen.

I know its just not my day. And i know no use gettin so frustrated. And I know no point feeling all down and sad. However, it is just hard. You know what I mean? There is so much expectation from myself. I just want myself to do so badly. I am able to advise people all the time when they are down, disappointed and stuff like that. But I don't seem to be able to apply these theories to myself. It's harder than I thought it would be. To those who have noticed, thanks for your concern.

Along the same line... INSPIRATION, FAITH and everything along that line. Regina introduced me to this book. THE LAST LECTURE -Prof Randy Pausch. What can I say? I was in awe when I first read the book. This man is strong. Not physically. But emotionally and mentally. The book is packed with inspirational qoutes which I shall name a few of them which I particularly like. 1. Brick walls are there for a reason. They give us a chance to show how badly we want something.

2. Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted.

3. If you lead your life the right way, the karma will take care of itself. The dreams will come to you.

Go ahead, read this book. I am sure you will find something unique for yourself.

This is a man who lived his last few months to the fullest with no regrets. What would you do if you are left with one month to live?




I would be lost.